Daily Stoic Entry #34: Am I In Control Or Is My Anxiety?
February 3rd 2022
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If I'm completely honest then at this moment in time more often than not my anxiety and fears, especially, are in control. More so than normal these last couple months, but that's also because I'm reshaping some core aspects of myself recently. Work, relationships, and hobbies and interests are all being taken apart. This brings a lot of uncertainty and with it anxiety and fears. Questions about self-worth come up and in that turbulent uncertainty it's difficult to feel like you're in control. But good habits and some strategies allow you to power through, just trust the process for a while. Meditation is a tool in your belt for this.
I wonder if it is helpful to dive into the source of my anxieties or if it's actually more likely to make it worse. Like picking at a scab, it won't heal if you don't leave it alone. I'm no psychologist so who knows? What's important is to experiment and try to see what sticks. Also keep in mind that you shouldn't be trying to become anyone else than you are. I'm sure that the anxieties have some root in trying to appear like someone else. You don't need to become better to be liked, appreciated, or loved.
Title prompts are taken from The Daily Stoic Journal by Ryan Holiday and Stephen Hanselman.